Sunday, February 21, 2010
My Shannon
I just wanted to write a specific blog about one of the bestest friends I've ever had! That would be my Shannon Baxter. First of all, I've known her since I was like 6 or 7 I think. She was little. VERY little. LOL But we struck up a friendship and we had good times together. So far, she really has been one of the only friends to really pay attention to me, and when I need it most, she ALWAYS comes through. I've always tried to take care, when my friends are in trouble, or having hard time, I've tried to take care to pay attention and try and do something special. And I almost always came a runnin when they needed a friend. Even if that meant driving a long way. Anyways, Shannon has been the only friend to return that. I like being surprised, and she knows that, so what did she do this past Friday. She planned secretly with my husband to surprising me by showing up and spending the night with me since Theo had to work. How amazing is that?! Not that you try and keep track of what friend did what and who's better than who, but when she does things like that, it totally puts her at the top of my list. Like for example, when everyone during my wedding was complaining about one particular bridesmaid, instead of going to that bridesmaid and telling her to pipe down and remember that I was the bride, they all complained to me, which only added to my stress. But guess who was the ONLY one defending me like they should've been?! Shannon! She went very tastefully to that person, privately as well, and told them, that they needed to remember that this was about me and etc. I didn't even find out about it right away, but it meant so much to me. There are small things that people don't realize how much they actually mean. Like for example, one day, when one of my friends was having a rough night, I had no idea what was exactly going down, but I put together a "Care" kit full of sweet/salty snacks, and alcohol and soda....LOL I really didn't have the money for all that, but I knew, that alone would help the situation, and me being there. Things like that people never do for me, except for Shannon. Its even been a hard transition to be single and have a whole bunch of friends, to being married and still want those same friends to be there, and they act like because I have a husband, I don't need them as much or something. That's so not true. Because when you have a close girlfriend....no guy can ever replace that. So there have been small things along the way that certain friends have done, but they have never been like the stuff Shannon's done. Anyways, I just appreciated it so much I decided to dedicate a blog to her! LOL She more than deserves it! :)
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
I'm so confused! lol
Okay, so I recently have collected some followers! I'm not exactly sure what that means! So! I was hoping maybe some people can give me some tips. Treneka, I can see yours and who you are, but there's a couple people on here I have NO idea who they are! LOL I just basically got this blog so that I could record things I wanted to remember easier. Being a first year of marriage and a new baby.....I figure typing will actually get it done. LOL Anyways, if anyone has any tips....help a sistah out! LOL Thanks guys! :)
Monday, February 15, 2010
Woah! What a Weekend!
So, the weekend of my baby shower finally came! I was so very happy and excited for it, even if my body wasn't so much. LOL I was so freaking exhausted all weekend and that's pretty much how I've stayed the past few days. I'm praying that God make me go into labor soon. I'm so sick of being pregnant...it's getting really REALLY uncomfortable. *sigh* Anyways, I had a wonderful baby shower! Several people showed up, which was nice because it showed they really cared! I got so much stuff, I don't even know what to do with all of it! We still didn't get everything we need like a Boppy, baby swing, breast pump or....something else we were missing. I can't remember right now. But I have some returns I can make, and hopefully with those, I can get what we need. I've been trying to unpack all day, but there's so much stuff, I just kinda get exhausted. Already I have a whole hamper full of baby clothes to wash and fold and get ready for little man. Ally did a wonderful job with the baby shower. I never imagined I could have such a nice shower! And it felt good to have one after not having a Wedding Shower. It was just all over very nice.
The day after that was Valentines Day!!!!! Theo and I celebrated our 1st V-Day as a married couple! It was so much fun! Before we left for VA for the weekend, we had bought a King size mattress that's to be delivered this Wednesday. So yesterday (V-Day) on the way back to MD, we shopped around at furniture places for bed frames. We found one at I think....well...I can't remember the name. LOL Anyways, we bought a King size bed frame for our mattress. Sadly that won't be here for another 2 weeks. But at least in 2 weeks we will have a full new bedroom set. I mean, we won't have a dresser set or anything that goes with it, but I am fully satisfied with the mattress and it being King sized!!!! I just know I'm so going to love it! :) I can't even wait to sleep on it! I only have 2 more nights! :) WhooooHoooo!
As for my sugar levels. I was freaking out, because they were higher than they used to be, and I wasn't eating anything horrid. Anyways, I finally got to talk to a Dr today and she was like "OH! They're fine! Don't worry about it, see you next Tuesday!" lol I was like "Oh! Phew! Okay!" lol So thank the Lord for that! I'm still praying I deliver soon though....I'm so uncomfortable being pregnant and as long as I have enough time to sort through all this stuff we got for the baby shower, then I'll be ready to have him. I'm getting to the point where I just wait around all day hoping today might be the day. LOL But it hasn't happened yet, duh! LOL Anyways, I guess that's all I wanted to write!
OH! Also, I wanted to say that Theo and I after furniture shopping, we went to go and see Dear John in movie theaters for V-Day....it was actually surprisingly better than I thought it was going to be. I like the fact that Theo and I could be together and enjoy each other's company and just talk. After the movie we just cuddled and talked about what we did/didn't like about the movie and then when we got home and went to bed (because he had to work this a.m.) we just laid there and held each others hands until we fell asleep. It's things like that, that make me appreciate God bringing him back into my life. He's the sweetest most amazing husband any girl could DREAM of asking for! :) Anyways, I guess that's it...I should get back to unpacking. *sigh* I need someone to entertain me while doing this! LOL
The day after that was Valentines Day!!!!! Theo and I celebrated our 1st V-Day as a married couple! It was so much fun! Before we left for VA for the weekend, we had bought a King size mattress that's to be delivered this Wednesday. So yesterday (V-Day) on the way back to MD, we shopped around at furniture places for bed frames. We found one at I think....well...I can't remember the name. LOL Anyways, we bought a King size bed frame for our mattress. Sadly that won't be here for another 2 weeks. But at least in 2 weeks we will have a full new bedroom set. I mean, we won't have a dresser set or anything that goes with it, but I am fully satisfied with the mattress and it being King sized!!!! I just know I'm so going to love it! :) I can't even wait to sleep on it! I only have 2 more nights! :) WhooooHoooo!
As for my sugar levels. I was freaking out, because they were higher than they used to be, and I wasn't eating anything horrid. Anyways, I finally got to talk to a Dr today and she was like "OH! They're fine! Don't worry about it, see you next Tuesday!" lol I was like "Oh! Phew! Okay!" lol So thank the Lord for that! I'm still praying I deliver soon though....I'm so uncomfortable being pregnant and as long as I have enough time to sort through all this stuff we got for the baby shower, then I'll be ready to have him. I'm getting to the point where I just wait around all day hoping today might be the day. LOL But it hasn't happened yet, duh! LOL Anyways, I guess that's all I wanted to write!
OH! Also, I wanted to say that Theo and I after furniture shopping, we went to go and see Dear John in movie theaters for V-Day....it was actually surprisingly better than I thought it was going to be. I like the fact that Theo and I could be together and enjoy each other's company and just talk. After the movie we just cuddled and talked about what we did/didn't like about the movie and then when we got home and went to bed (because he had to work this a.m.) we just laid there and held each others hands until we fell asleep. It's things like that, that make me appreciate God bringing him back into my life. He's the sweetest most amazing husband any girl could DREAM of asking for! :) Anyways, I guess that's it...I should get back to unpacking. *sigh* I need someone to entertain me while doing this! LOL
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
A Day At the Doctors....
Wow! What a day today has been! I figured I should blog about it, so I can remind myself what I don't want to happen in the future. LOL
So today I had a Dr appointment at 9:30a.m. I knew last night that I didn't wanna go by myself because I had been emotional. Lately I've felt on the verge of crying all the time. LOL Last night Theo had taken me to the hospital because for the past 4 days I hadn't been able to breathe. So when I called the nurse, she told me to go to Labor and Delivery. So Theo took me and after being there for about....2-3 hours (of course I was hooked up to a pulse reader, baby monitor and my monitor) they just decided it was asthma flaring up because of maybe the weather. Anyways....after that (and freaking out because Theo and I don't have bags packed or anything. lol) I was really emotional. So last night I asked Theo if maybe he could take me today to my appointment. Just leave work for a couple of hours. He said he thought he could. Well when I wake up this morning he texts me and says that he can't because he has a class. I almost cried. But I sucked it up. Got ready to go and took myself. Now, I was already nervous because of the massive amounts of snow we've been getting! We've had a lot of snow...I think 30 inches. Anyways, so I really didn't wanna drive. It was kinda rough getting the Journey out to the main roads, but I did it. Then when I got it to the highway, the whole car started shaking like the tires needed to be balanced and etc. Well we just got that done so I knew that couldn't be the reason. So I just took my time. I finally got to the hospital. They have a parking garage that's right across from the main hospital door that you have to go in. Which is highly convenient. Anyways, there's a lady out there flagging me to pass. I was like "OH NO! What do I do?!" I dunno where to go? Every time I'd been there I'd only ever parked in the parking garage. So I go down a bit further to where the exit is and there's a couple of cars stopped in front of me. I wait a bit and then I realize there's a guy out there telling them what's what. Well I'm a bit relived, because otherwise I wouldn't have known what to do. He let's about 2 cars in the back way of the garage and flags the other cars on. Well, I ask him what the deal is and he gives me attitude and is like "This garage is closed! You have to go down to the employee parking. There's not charge for parking today!" I was like "Well how far is that?! I'm 33 weeks pregnant and I can't be walking far!" He was so rude...he mumbled something about a shuttle and then waved me on and continued talking to the next guy. I of course drove off in tears. When I get employee parking (which is ALLLLLLLLLL the way around the other side and down a couple hills....of course the lot is almost full and I have to park all the way down at the bottom. I was so mad. And I had a full bladder so that I could pee in the cup when I got to my appointment. So I had to walk about a half a mile to get to the hospital door...and which point I STILL had to walk down to the other end of the building. It was redunk! I was in pain because my bladder was so full and my back was hurting because that's what it's been doing lately. I was fighting tears the WHOLE time I was walking. By the time I get there...they take FOREVER to check me in. Well basically I'm getting tired of typing all of this and I have other things I gotta get to doing. But basically in this same trip they also bullied me into getting the H1N1 shot. Which I had avidly said over and over again that I didn't want to take. They basically didn't even wait for me to say "yes or no" they basically said "This is what you're getting and you're getting it today." It was horrid. I was so upset, because I knew the only reason they had bullied me was b/c I was emotionally unstable and couldn't handle fighting them off.It was so wrong of them and so help me if my baby comes out with defects because of it. The thing was....that God had given me such a peace about not getting it that I was okay with it. But yeah. This is a huge lesson I have to learn and it's hard. Cause believe me...my emotions today were so out of whack. And the thing is...it's all solely due to pregnancy. Yipee! LOL OH! Another thing I wanna remember is they told me if my sugar levels didn't improve in 1 week they were going to have to put me on insulin and which case then I'd have to come into the hospital 2x's a week just for them to monitor the baby and then there is chance of sudden death for the baby. Let me say this now. If that happens. I'm not taking insulin. They can induce me early. Cause this is all ridiculous to go through for just 35 more days of pregnancy. It's just too much. So anyways, I'm off to do some laundry and have ice cream, test my sugars and cuddle with my love. Goodness knows I need it after today. Phew!
So today I had a Dr appointment at 9:30a.m. I knew last night that I didn't wanna go by myself because I had been emotional. Lately I've felt on the verge of crying all the time. LOL Last night Theo had taken me to the hospital because for the past 4 days I hadn't been able to breathe. So when I called the nurse, she told me to go to Labor and Delivery. So Theo took me and after being there for about....2-3 hours (of course I was hooked up to a pulse reader, baby monitor and my monitor) they just decided it was asthma flaring up because of maybe the weather. Anyways....after that (and freaking out because Theo and I don't have bags packed or anything. lol) I was really emotional. So last night I asked Theo if maybe he could take me today to my appointment. Just leave work for a couple of hours. He said he thought he could. Well when I wake up this morning he texts me and says that he can't because he has a class. I almost cried. But I sucked it up. Got ready to go and took myself. Now, I was already nervous because of the massive amounts of snow we've been getting! We've had a lot of snow...I think 30 inches. Anyways, so I really didn't wanna drive. It was kinda rough getting the Journey out to the main roads, but I did it. Then when I got it to the highway, the whole car started shaking like the tires needed to be balanced and etc. Well we just got that done so I knew that couldn't be the reason. So I just took my time. I finally got to the hospital. They have a parking garage that's right across from the main hospital door that you have to go in. Which is highly convenient. Anyways, there's a lady out there flagging me to pass. I was like "OH NO! What do I do?!" I dunno where to go? Every time I'd been there I'd only ever parked in the parking garage. So I go down a bit further to where the exit is and there's a couple of cars stopped in front of me. I wait a bit and then I realize there's a guy out there telling them what's what. Well I'm a bit relived, because otherwise I wouldn't have known what to do. He let's about 2 cars in the back way of the garage and flags the other cars on. Well, I ask him what the deal is and he gives me attitude and is like "This garage is closed! You have to go down to the employee parking. There's not charge for parking today!" I was like "Well how far is that?! I'm 33 weeks pregnant and I can't be walking far!" He was so rude...he mumbled something about a shuttle and then waved me on and continued talking to the next guy. I of course drove off in tears. When I get employee parking (which is ALLLLLLLLLL the way around the other side and down a couple hills....of course the lot is almost full and I have to park all the way down at the bottom. I was so mad. And I had a full bladder so that I could pee in the cup when I got to my appointment. So I had to walk about a half a mile to get to the hospital door...and which point I STILL had to walk down to the other end of the building. It was redunk! I was in pain because my bladder was so full and my back was hurting because that's what it's been doing lately. I was fighting tears the WHOLE time I was walking. By the time I get there...they take FOREVER to check me in. Well basically I'm getting tired of typing all of this and I have other things I gotta get to doing. But basically in this same trip they also bullied me into getting the H1N1 shot. Which I had avidly said over and over again that I didn't want to take. They basically didn't even wait for me to say "yes or no" they basically said "This is what you're getting and you're getting it today." It was horrid. I was so upset, because I knew the only reason they had bullied me was b/c I was emotionally unstable and couldn't handle fighting them off.It was so wrong of them and so help me if my baby comes out with defects because of it. The thing was....that God had given me such a peace about not getting it that I was okay with it. But yeah. This is a huge lesson I have to learn and it's hard. Cause believe me...my emotions today were so out of whack. And the thing is...it's all solely due to pregnancy. Yipee! LOL OH! Another thing I wanna remember is they told me if my sugar levels didn't improve in 1 week they were going to have to put me on insulin and which case then I'd have to come into the hospital 2x's a week just for them to monitor the baby and then there is chance of sudden death for the baby. Let me say this now. If that happens. I'm not taking insulin. They can induce me early. Cause this is all ridiculous to go through for just 35 more days of pregnancy. It's just too much. So anyways, I'm off to do some laundry and have ice cream, test my sugars and cuddle with my love. Goodness knows I need it after today. Phew!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Snowed In
Oh man! Another snow! This is getting plain ridiculous! We've already had like a bajillion inches of snow! Why must it continue? LOL And right now my pregnancy hormones are RAGING and I want Snickers and Sonic! It's so redunk! LOL I wish sometimes, that you could go on strike with your pregnancy hormones...but that doesn't really work. LOL Anyways, at least Theo's home with me! He's actually been really productive! He has unpacked a lot of boxes and thrown away a lot of stuff. A lot of this stuff piling around was his anyways. LOL I on the other hand, have been lame all day. All I've done is sit around eat, watch movies and lounge. LOL I was attempting some work now, but then I decided I wanted to blog instead. LOL Go me! Procrastination is the key! hahahaha!
So I wanted to actually vent on here. I'm so frustrated right now with a certain friend. I will not name who, but I'm sure to some people who might read this, it'll be obvious. Anyways, first of all, I'm irritated because this friend NEVER comes to see me. It's very hurtful. It's been since November that we've been in our new place and the only time she's come is for Josh's wedding and she spent the night just so she didn't have to drive home late. She makes time to go see other people and do other things, but it doesn't seem like she ever thinks of me. Like for example. She went to a friends house for a snow storm, but did she think about coming here for that? No? I just get so hurt because it seems like she only wants to talk about the issues in her life and etc and she does check on me, but there seems to be no effort to come visit me or see how I'm really doing. I've ignored it for awhile, but I just keep feeling hurt and upset over the whole thing. It keeps bugging me. Also, her Mom isn't coming to my baby shower. That's hurtful too, because...there's no good reason! I wanted her there just like I wanted other people there. This friend won't tell me why, and in the past she would've. I don't know what's up. She doesn't share things with me. I'm sure this other friend of hers who she's snowed in with knows. And that's what makes it hurt even more. I think I deserve an explanation. If it's not about me then why can't I know? It's just all unfair and hurtful to me. I thought blogging about it may help, but it doesn't seem to be helping. I just don't think it's all right and I'm getting tired of feeling this way. I've prayed about it and asked God if I should feel this way, but it seems that my feelings are legit. I haven't sinned by doing anything about it. I've just kept it all to myself. Maybe that's the problem? I dunno. It might be. I may need to say something. But....the thing is....this is not the kinda thing I wanna do over the phone. I have refused to go down there for a reason. She makes time for everyone but me. Also, I am almost due and I really don't wanna spend much time out of state. It just seems fair that she come up here. Especially since the time I have been married every time I've seen her, it's been me going down there. So, yeah. I dunno what I'm going to do. I guess I should talk to Theo about it, cause I'm really feeling hurt over it, and I guess I should say something. *sigh* I just really don't want to do it over the phone. And about the Baby Shower thing...I mean...REALLY?! What's so secretive that I can't know?! Am I crazy for thinking that someone close to me should at least give me an explanation as to why they're not coming? Maybe I'm a little hyped about the baby shower too, because I never got a Bridal Shower. So I guess I feel like this is it. This is very important to me, and so many people have just acted like it's nothing. I don't like that. But you know what....I guess in the long run, the important people will be there. The one's who really care will be. *sigh* Meanwhile I'll just hurt over the people who don't really deserve my hurt. I guess.....I thought they did...but I guess that's a no.
Well I guess I'm done venting for now. I should do some work before Theo gets mad. LOL He won't really get mad though. He loves me too much! :) I freaking love that man!
P.S. The mexicans that live underneath us are about to get murdered by me! They keep blasting their freaking music! GARRRRRRR!!!!!
So I wanted to actually vent on here. I'm so frustrated right now with a certain friend. I will not name who, but I'm sure to some people who might read this, it'll be obvious. Anyways, first of all, I'm irritated because this friend NEVER comes to see me. It's very hurtful. It's been since November that we've been in our new place and the only time she's come is for Josh's wedding and she spent the night just so she didn't have to drive home late. She makes time to go see other people and do other things, but it doesn't seem like she ever thinks of me. Like for example. She went to a friends house for a snow storm, but did she think about coming here for that? No? I just get so hurt because it seems like she only wants to talk about the issues in her life and etc and she does check on me, but there seems to be no effort to come visit me or see how I'm really doing. I've ignored it for awhile, but I just keep feeling hurt and upset over the whole thing. It keeps bugging me. Also, her Mom isn't coming to my baby shower. That's hurtful too, because...there's no good reason! I wanted her there just like I wanted other people there. This friend won't tell me why, and in the past she would've. I don't know what's up. She doesn't share things with me. I'm sure this other friend of hers who she's snowed in with knows. And that's what makes it hurt even more. I think I deserve an explanation. If it's not about me then why can't I know? It's just all unfair and hurtful to me. I thought blogging about it may help, but it doesn't seem to be helping. I just don't think it's all right and I'm getting tired of feeling this way. I've prayed about it and asked God if I should feel this way, but it seems that my feelings are legit. I haven't sinned by doing anything about it. I've just kept it all to myself. Maybe that's the problem? I dunno. It might be. I may need to say something. But....the thing is....this is not the kinda thing I wanna do over the phone. I have refused to go down there for a reason. She makes time for everyone but me. Also, I am almost due and I really don't wanna spend much time out of state. It just seems fair that she come up here. Especially since the time I have been married every time I've seen her, it's been me going down there. So, yeah. I dunno what I'm going to do. I guess I should talk to Theo about it, cause I'm really feeling hurt over it, and I guess I should say something. *sigh* I just really don't want to do it over the phone. And about the Baby Shower thing...I mean...REALLY?! What's so secretive that I can't know?! Am I crazy for thinking that someone close to me should at least give me an explanation as to why they're not coming? Maybe I'm a little hyped about the baby shower too, because I never got a Bridal Shower. So I guess I feel like this is it. This is very important to me, and so many people have just acted like it's nothing. I don't like that. But you know what....I guess in the long run, the important people will be there. The one's who really care will be. *sigh* Meanwhile I'll just hurt over the people who don't really deserve my hurt. I guess.....I thought they did...but I guess that's a no.
Well I guess I'm done venting for now. I should do some work before Theo gets mad. LOL He won't really get mad though. He loves me too much! :) I freaking love that man!
P.S. The mexicans that live underneath us are about to get murdered by me! They keep blasting their freaking music! GARRRRRRR!!!!!
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